Friday, January 25, 2008

Talents

I have been going through the same things as Sarah. I am not sure what he wants me to do with my talents. But I do know that I want to give my two weeks and get out of that place. I feel that I am hurting my family and walk with the way I act after coming home from work. I then came up with this great idea to take dress-up pictures for people in a make shift studio. I don't want to do outdoor pictures like Jenny. I want to do pictures like the ones I took of the girls. I want the kids to have fun and then take pictures they will treasure for a long time. I have been so excited about this that I couldn't sleep last night. I was up doing research. I also spent the day taking pictures of all the different outfits that we have to use. I took about 15 outfits and still have a whole book left. So I know that I have the outfits and props to pull it off. I know that my family lacks the faith that I can do it because of the way they acted. They think that this will be one of those things I start and never finish. And if that is the case then I don't want to do it. That is not what I am aiming for. I want something that will be fun to do that I can enjoy while making money to help support the family. I feel this is one of the talents that I have and I may not be the best but I know the Lord can help make me better. I know that some thing that the only thing I am good at is taking care of kids. I love that but truthful my kids are enough without anyone else. So at this point in my life I feel like the worst mother on the planet because unlike Angela I don't laugh when I get hurt I yell at the closest person. Believe I am going through a time where I am asking the Lord to calm me and allow me to have more patience with my kids. I know that you are getting a look at me that you might not want. But I need to get this off my chest. I have been a bad mom.
All I can do is pray Lord forgive me and change me!!
I love you!

2 friends pats:

Meems said...

We all have those days. I think the important thing is to be the best that we can be with each new day. Continually growing and reaching new heights.

I'm praying for you.

Nanna's Place said...

You are not a bad mom because you yell at your kids....If that were the case I have won the worst mother award....I yelled at my kids all the time and they turned out great....You are a great mom because of the quality time you spend with your girls....I think the idea you have of taking dressup pics is a great one...I say do it as long as you can and let your talent shine for God. I love you.